There is great power in the diagnosis of what you are going through. Knowing that the nightmares, the flashbacks, the mood shifts, the confusion, the sadness, the anger, the frustration, all have a name is empowering; however, to hear that it is PTSD can stop you in your tracks. In some ways there is relief, knowing that you aren't crazy....this has a name...is comforting, but on the other hand it's PTSD. There's no cure. This is a lifelong journey. Can you be okay with that? Or is it easier to go back to the confusion of not knowing? At first it feels a bit like a "sentence". You are being told you are something and that basically you are stuck with it; there isn't a whole lot of hope attached to that.
Asking yourself if you are okay with it is a bit confusing too because what choice do you have in the matter? Well, there is a choice, you just aren't able to see it yet. We can view PTSD as a sentence or we can view it as the part of ourselves that is processing some experiences that have challenged us at deeply emotional levels. We aren't prisoners of our own mind, although it can feel that way; as you come through the stage of "knowing" what you have, you must enter the stage of "learning" about what you have, leading to developing tools for what you have, and all the while you will be growing through what you have.
There is hope in post-traumatic stress. I have been experiencing many heal through many avenues. I will always stand by the idea that there isn't one way to heal. It takes many avenues, many tools, many different kinds of approaches to aid you in your path of healing. The truth of the matter is that no matter what we experience from the outside, healing always occurs from the inside out. So it's important not to rely on one thing or put all faith in one doctor, one counselor, one alternative practitioner to heal you. It is important that you take control of your healing by combining all efforts and paying attention to how each is impacting your overall health, well-being, and internal equilibrium. It all works together, but as my doctors told me....I know my body best. I need to know my mind as well as I know my body. I need to pay attention to my triggers, my diet, my exercise regime, my self-care, my instructions, and many other facets of my well-being in order to stay in balance. When I stop paying attention I get out of balance and it is challenging for me to see how all efforts are working together for me. Learn to use your doctors, counselors, and other practitioners as a tool for you to learn from and communicate with. It's important because when we place our life in the hands of others expecting them to fix a problem that they can't fix from the outside in, it leads to a lot of frustration, anger, and resentment. I've listened to a lot of stories of hopelessness, frustration, and discontentment when it comes to care and I can feel the pain many are going through, but know that there are things you can do to help you along. I had to learn how to do that too, so I understand where you are coming from. I had to learn where I could impact change in my own experience; when I sometimes wasn't sure change existed. Status quo is a tough place to be.
Know that there is power in educating yourself on your diagnosis and I encourage that we don't fear the diagnosis, but use it to inform and educate ourselves about it; this will offer the opportunity to take some steps in a positive direction.